Sunday, December 30, 2007

Chocolate Fever






Got this from my Email... haha...

Saturday, December 29, 2007

Rap: World peace

Yo... Boys and Girls...
Come on, Try to Rap This Lyrics...

I know it hard to see whats happening every time
And this war keeps coming back in every way
I know children suffer pain and death on line
But still others Dont give a damn and so who's gonna pay

For the sound of bombs all over the world
For the sound of crying and suffering thats not gonna stop
For the sound of evil laughter all night long
and for everything that we've done to stop this war.

Dont tell me theres is peace in this world
Coz all I see in T.V is people suffer in hunger
See all the rich man laughing and on the other side is all the poor
Its so not fair for them, Cant you see their days are gettin shorter?

Even if you say the war is over
Even If there's peace
But why still I can see many people suffer the pain
Is there really something missing in this world?
Oh god please tell us how, How to change the world...

Emptiness, loneliness, sadness all over
Where does all the happiness and joy have gone?
Why are humans so cruel and yet so nice
Please tell me how can I every let go
I cant ignore this silly world
I cant give up whats left of me
I wanna try to change the world
but how I dont know
Coz every time I donate something, They want more...

I always wonder when will it be enough
Enough for everyone to life happily ever after
But as they said, The world will never be enough of anything

Choose between New and old, Sure we want new
Choose between peace and fight, Sure we want peace

But still I see gang fights everywhere,
Killing and punishing never stops.

Why cant we just forgive ourself and move on with a better life
What for fighting? We are all same Humans
We share the same blood, same tisu and same living style.

So please everyone stop this war and lets be friends...

Whispers

*actually I'm thinking of writing a song but I dunno how, and if I write a poem but with no rhymes then its not really a poem. all I have in my mind was this below*

Days passes by slowly and I'm still sitting here alone
Oh how can this be when you're not here with me
White birds flew by singing their happy songs
Wind blows softly just like you whispering to me

Thinking back the days we had
Remembering the 1st time we spoke
The 1st time you smile to me
And the 1st and only time we went for a movie

I dont know how I will have this kind of funny feeling for you
As I'm so scare to step forward, scare of hurting you
But yet I dont wanna be just friends with you
And so I'll just wait here until its the right time for you

This is not a poem or a song
This is just another of my silly post
All I can think of is nothing but you
You keep haunting me even in my dreams

Maybe you just dont wanna let me know how you feel
Maybe you just wanna be friends
Maybe Its not the right time for you
But how would I know if you didnt tell me

I'll just wait for you
I'll just stand here
Whenever you need me
I'll be there

To hold you
To guide you
To care for you
and to cherish every moment that I've spend with you...

Thursday, December 27, 2007

Little Princess

Far beyond the forest there's a little flower,
That blooms with light shining over the world,
This little princess awaken and yawning,
With an angel beside her guarding...

Dark clouds are gathering and rain is falling,
Little princess is all alone and the storm is coming,
Little does she know but someone's here,
Guiding every steps with protection over her...

Of all the princess that is there,
This angel choose you to care,
Sometimes its not easy to see,
How blind love could be...

Wonder where this princess came from,
And how such lovely aroma could be form,
But sometimes you seem to far,
Shining up in the sky like a beautiful bright star...

No matter how I will still try my best,
Giving up my everything to pass this test,
Because Love is so blind and you already knew,
With my heart I've shown my feelings for you...

Tuesday, December 25, 2007

Me and my Work...

Hallo, I'm Dexter.. ok.. sounds silly... you guys already know me...

I'm gonna talk about my emotions and feelings at Work... About me...
I'm actually a very simple yet complicated person, depends how you feel about me. I'm very emotional sometimes, that means I can be hurt and I can cry and I can feel sad. I like to help others... But sometimes I get scolding after I do so... The thing is I also dont like to pull other people to use as excuse or reason why or so on... thats why when I really get scolding I rather keep my mouth shut and bear all by my self... not the 1st time after all... I Just want everybody to be happy and work happy and so on...

This is what happens to me when I was working Yesterday. I was busy preparing some standby Item because the Chef ask me to... I have to cut coleslaw almost 8kg of cabbage and 500gm of carrots. You get the Idea for coleslaw? all cut in thin strips... Well, this dont bothers me as I like playing with my knife and Cutting... but after awhile... The steward have gone back so there is nobody to wash up all the plates and kitchen utensils. The washing area is a mess... no one bother to arrange properly all the dirty plates and kitchen stuff... the kitchen helpers just throw all the dirty thingy there and with all the plates... and so I cant stand to see that kinda things...


In a kitchen.. no actually In a restaurant, there have to be teamwork, helping each other... Not saying that "thats not my work, I dont care... I'll just leave it like that and let others do it"

So, as u know... I like to help out and I cant stand all the mess there... What if the plates all drop on the floor? who wants to clean? What if somebody gets hurts from the broken glasses? what if that big metal pot drop and hit someones head?

so.. Fine... and also all the cutleries are dirty and the floor people cant prepare table settings because they dont have enough clean cutleries.

So what I did was, I stop cutting the coleslaw and go wash up all the cutleries and arrange the plates anf pans and pot at the washing area... so that they look need and wont be a mess... I also wash up all the Ice-cream cups and plates...

So when I was about to continue my coleslaw cutting, suddenly there was some orders coming in and that other 2 kitchen helpers didnt really wanna work, they walk slowly like it was nothing.. ignoring the orders and so on... FINE... I do it all my self... 3 orders papers... easy... I do it step by step... ok... when I finish the orders... there was more orders coming in... ok, I continue to do orders untill I totally fotget about my coleslaw... my head hurts like hell, feel dizzy and I still have a little fever...

After all the orders I stop for awhile and rest... *forget about my coleslaw... The chef come back... scolded me... because I didnt do the coleslaw... but actually I did, I cut about 5kg of cabbage just that I didnt start cutting the carrots...

This is what he says:

"I told you to cut coleslaw just now but why you go and wash plates?"

"sorry chef, I see there so messy and all the plates and cutleries finish dee, and also the was customers so I help to wash a little and arrange some"

"I told you not to bother about them already, Just do The work that I ask you to do. Now you see no more coleslaw already... How You wanna serve the customers?"

I just shut my mouth... he still repeating the same thing over and over again... but in my mind i was thinking:
*If no coleslaw, cant serve customers lor.... But If no cutleries and got coleslaw, You want the customers to eat with hands ar? and also no plates then where you wanna put the foods? on papers?*

But, ok... I dont like to argue with other ppl unless I really cant take it anymore... Fine... I'm not going back to work today anymore... my resignation letter says 30th would be my last day butI dont wanna go back to work any more...

Why?

1. No team work.
2. Not helping each other but says that your work is your work and your do it your self.
3. I cant stand the management... as in the operation manager...
4. Cant stand the kitchen helpers. missing in action all the time and not working properly.
5. The kitchen preparing order system sucks... Even I can do better if there is team work.
so it all comes down to team work and happy working together...


If you ask me what I like working there.

1. new friends as in all the floor stuff and kitchen stuff...
2. the floor manager treat me nicely.
3. the chef is also ok and wont give me much pressure but sometimes just his attitude.

I think thats all...

I'm really sorry if I hurt anybody during my working days... and I'm also sorry that I cant help out there anymore...


but outside of work... We are still friends... Take care guys...

Monday, December 24, 2007

Beach...!!!


I like this picture... the one on top... emo-ing on the beach with my guitar... Wooo~
He acted cool... swt...
Me and Simon, My best friend... can be my brother also... haha... Pals For Life...

Tuesday, December 18, 2007

Poem: Just Me...

Staring up the sky looking at stars around me,
Wondering if you ever misses me.
Such a lonely night that time pass by so slowly,
Close my eyes and feel you in my arm and just wanna say I'm sorry.


Its hard for me to say that I dont love you,
and its not easy to say that I do.
But this dont mean anything,
because deep down you know that my heart is everything.


Sometimes it seems that I've let go,
actually I dont really know.
these memories keep haunting me,
I still wonder how should my future be.


I reached out my hand for you,
but without saying a word you just flew.
some people say love is blind,
and so they say that I'll be fine.


Everything happens for a reason,
and for some reason I misses you every season.
I guess I'm not the only one that feels this way,
because you know my heart thats why I dont have to say.


My life is getting darker everyday,
But there is something I have to say.
I found a light in a corner of my heart,
the light was you and I wish that we will never be apart...

Friday, December 14, 2007

what would you do next?

This is the story about a fallen angel from heaven and became a spirit...

Shin was his name... a wondering spirit around human world... he always wonder... how does human feels?

Shin always wanted to become a human being and feel the things that human can feel... the biggest question on him mind was "How does it feels to love someone and being loved back by that person?"

one day, when shin was wondering around a park at night... he then saw a boy being beaten down by gangsters...

Shin: Shit... i gotta help him... but how?

but it was too late... the boy's bleeding wont stop and then a knife poke right in his heart... the boy dies and the bunch of gangsters ran away...

Shin was standing next to the boy... and so... something come to his mind... *I cound use this boy's body as my own... after all i'm an angel*


whout hesitating, Shin let him self into the boys body... and so... magic happen... the dead body become life again... blood slowly flows back into the body... the look on the face changes to match shin's face... and voice... then Shin now became that boy...

but Shin didnt realize that becoming human, he has to fond a place to stay and eat and do what other normal human would do...

there was thunder clap... rain started to fall... Shin, for the 1st time became wet and felt cold... he ran to find shelter... he try knocking on every house but no one seems to wanna let him in... you know, now a days where got ppl so kind wan...

Shin felt too cold and started to feel hungry... he cant hold on anymore and so, Shin fainted right in the middle of the road...

The next morning... as Shin's eyes slowly open, he feel him self ona warm comfy bed. he look around... the door slowly open, a girl was standing there.

Summer: oh! i'm sorry, i didnt know u were awake. i'm summer... i found u fainted on the road last night when i was driving home...

smiling to Shin...

Shin: yea... I'm Shin... thx for helping me... I never felt like this b4...

Summer then help Shin up and make him breakfast...

(i'm not gonna tell you the long scrip of the story... i'm just gonna cut it short but as i say... plz imagine whats going on on...)

Shin then told summer that he has no friends and no parents... we was alone all the time and didnt know anything about this world... but Shin never told Summer that he was an angel...
Summer than pity Shin and make friends with him... Shin's 1st and only friend.. Summer...

Shin then learn how 2 be a human being from Summer... He stayed together with Summer in her house... Shin then found a job as a waiter in a restaurant... he was very friendly there and all the customers love him...

3 years have pass and Shin is now the manager of the restaurant... He learn to be a gentleman and take good care of Summer... But yet... Shin still dunno whats the feeling of Love...

but little does he know... Summer have already fallen in love with Shin when she 1st saw him laying on the road that night...

Summer cant really tell this feeling because all she feel from her heart is a warm and comfy feeling when Shin was around. She felt protected and believe that Shin was a good person... but Summer never told Shin about this feelings...

another 2 years have passed... Shin and Summer was so happy together but they r still not couples... they went to the beach together, went to the park, hilltop... Shin even learn how to play the guitar and sing for Summer...

Summer have to go over seas for 1 year to work... and so Shin cannot follow because he have to take care of the restaurant as a manager... Summer left Shin behind and Shin took care of her house for her...

Slowly and slowly, Shin started to feel something different inside him... he feels like without Summer by his side, he felt lonely... and so he know that how missing a person feels like... he will call Summer once a week because the bill was to expensive and he cant afford it. Summer will call back some times too...

Shin then have this very strong feeling for Summer... was it love? Shin dont know but all he wanted was to be with her...

after a year... Summer came back home... Shin was as work and dont know that Summer has came home. Summer prepared dinner and waited for Shin...

WAH.... Shin was so happy when we saw Summer... they Hug... and laugh... then suddenly, Shin hold Summer's hand and...

Shin: We've known each other for a long time but 1 year without you... I felt something different... I dont know what was it but i feel that everyday was so dark without you... i wanted to ask you this... Summer, Will you be mine and only mine?

Summer face was so red and she was smiling...

Summer: Yes Shin... yes.. because i've always loved you...

They look into each others eyes for awhile... Shin then knew it was love... slowly, they kissed...
as times goes by... Shin and Summer moved on...

Where were the most happy couples around the world... the time the spend together was so fantastic...
They Kissed, had lunch, make love to each other.... *you get the picture of a lovely couples...

another 3 years have passed...

it was time...

one very night... Shin took Summer to the hilltop and they just sit there. then Suddenly Shin hugged Summer tightly and said

Shin: Whatever happens, I wont leave you so please dont forget me ok?

Summer: Shin... what heppen? why are you saying this?

Shin: I'm sorry my love... But I promise that I will always loved you... from my very heart...

Summer: I love you too Shin... but please tell me what happen? you are scaring me...

Shin: If i told you that i'm an angel that have fallen from heaven and become a spirit on earth.. Would you believe me?

Summer: what are you talking about?

Shin: I'm serious, I'm an angel... I've come down and be a human but now my time is up... I cant stay here anymore... even if i dont wanna go... but i cant... I have to go back...

tears flow from Summer's eyes... She knew Shin would never lied to her... She believed every single world he said.. Summer than hugged Shin back and said...

Summer: No matter what happens... I will always loved you and only you...

the sun slowly rise at the far end of the ocean... They look at each other's eyes...

Shin was glowing and then angel wings appeared behind Shin's shoulder... Shin's eyes was filled with tears and so was Summer's...

Shin then rub away summer's tears and touch her face softly...

Shin: One last kiss that would lasted forever...

Slowly... they kissed... and then Shin started to fade away... slowly... floating uo to the sky...

Shin smiled... and then he faded away... leaving a feather for Summer...

Summer then took the feather and look at the sunrise... and smiled back and said...

* Shin, I promise you... I will always loved you and I will take good care of this feather... wait for me... I will join you soon in heaven... *

FOODS...!!!

ok... i got all this picture from my fren... all nice nice food from somewhere around the world... ok lar... i forget where... haha... but nvm lar... see dee then u all will also feel hungry... blek...



















ok... i think thats about it... haha... hungry? mayb not... ok lar... wait for my next post ya... I will find some other thingy to post about... hehe...

Saturday, December 8, 2007

Into The Night

Live version :






Damn... I love Santana's electric guitar sound... woa.....~

Friday, December 7, 2007

Heroes...

One of that is my arms, The darker wan lor... follow the clock har...

Me, Benjipapa, Minny, Wendy, Ralph, Willazz, Imin...

Heroes Of Zeroes... muahahahhaa...




see this wan... my hand... in the next morning... i did it my self... why? coz i'm crazy i guess...

Booyah~~~~

Why!?

tell you something...

they bank in my salary into my account liao lor... got about RM366 coz last month i work about 1week++ only mar... just start work mar...

ok lor... little nvm lor... Rm366 can last me + petrol + food + outing untill next months pay liao mar...

so i went to the bank... wanna go atm take some money to go pump petrol...

after i take out Rm50, i went back to my car.... and guess what... my car wont start...

fuck... battery die...

ok lor... can jump cable mar... got car shop beside mar... so i walk to the car shop, tell that guy... ok... he come jumo cable for me... ok liao lor.. charge me RM8... i only got RM50 mar... just press mar... so ok lor... go his shop pay lor... drive my car there... then park and pay him...

then after that... guess what...

MCB leh... cannot start.... why ar??? because battery sudah rosak...

the fella wanna charge me Rm165 for changing new car battery... kaneh... what i heard from my dad is only about Rm145 kelisa battery lor...

he see i no catr to drive and stuck in his shop so... what to do... Rm165 lar... no discount summore... 2lan nia...


now i left about Rm126 to survive untill next months pay... survive means + petrol + food + outing and parking and so on...

$#!^@*^!%#*&#T*&(^%#)(!(^&%#@^$!@*&%!

to michelle michimi

ok, this post if for michelle, my ex-gf...

actually requested my her lar... Michelle wanted to know how and what i think about her... her personality and so on...

ok, no hard feelings... i'll say positive and negative all out...

you are a nice and caring person but you only think about yr self when you are down. meaning you dont care about my feelings also.

sometimes I dont like the way you talk to me and the words you used.

You know how 2 make me smile when i'm down.
you lighten me up when all around me were dark.
I still remember your smile when you say good morning to me in that white long pants and a teddy bear back shirt.

you are a person that needs others attention... if I'm a little bz to reply yr msg, you will become a little moody... sometimes...

you like to drink beer and go clubbing... I wont say the rest out... we both know...

I'm worried for you all the time but I dont wanna control you, I want you to have fun and also be responsible.

I know i cant be with you 24/7 coz we're so far apart but I promise that i'm loyal to you all the time and i wont cheat on you.

I know now we are only friends and i hope after you reading this you wont have any hard feelings...

take care my friend...