Lost

I am standing on a crossroad,
Each road leading to a place that i don't know,
And i don't know which should i take,
Or should i just stay here,
I do not know whats left here that keeps me from staying anymore,
Besides my family, my friends, and the beautiful night skies,
There is nothing left for me here,
I wonder if people would even miss me when i leave,
I wonder how they would feel with me gone,
I wonder if there is someone who would say "I wish i had stop him from going or at least i'll go with him.",
But the world is never kind,
Never fair,
Never perfect for anyone,
There is always a catch in everything,
A price we all have to pay for the things we gain,
Nothing is free,
Not even Love, because you pay with Hurts,
Not even Sweetness, because you pay with Bitterness,
Not even Hate, because you pay with Betrayal and Lies,
Not even Happiness, because you pay with sadness,
Not even Companionship, because you pay with Loneliness,
Not even Fulfillment, because you pay with Emptiness,
And don't think that you have gain what you got because there is a price and it can also backfire at you,
I'm still standing at the crossroad,
I really do not know what I really want,
Maybe you are right that I never really let it all go,
Maybe this is why it still hurts,
And maybe that is why i still felt alone empty fallen break,
sometimes I just wish I could rip my heart out and wash it clean then maybe i could feel different and maybe i could really see what i really want,
I know, I emo, down, useless piece of shit or whatever you called it.
standing on a crossroad and don't know which to pick,
I'm Lost In Life...