hate

  Right now i just felt like punching and breaking some things but unfortunately i've got nothing to break. Yeah i admit, my temper is going off badly, i've got less patients than i usually have and I dont know shit of what i am doing.

  I'm messed up, I dont know if i will ever loved again, I dont know if i can be loyal again, I dont know what the fuck am i suppose to do.
  I hate this cursed, I hate it when i really loved someone and i cant be with them, I hate it then I wanted to give everything to someone that loved me but i just cant give them enough, I hate it that all those people i loved eventually will leave me for someone else.
  Am i really that bad a person? am i really that second hand guy that could only be your part time lover? Am I really that useless that I couldn't love enough? what the fuck is love anyway?
  Fuck this shit, I hate all of this, I hate this feelings, I hate it when i suddenly missed you and then something in my mind tells me "she will never be yours so go fuck your self!!!"
I hate it when my mind tells me "You've fucked up yr life long time ago!"
I hate my love life
I hate my own life

I hate my work life
I hate my self for being so useless

I hate that i dont know shit of what happening
I hate everything...